Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Mark Jones
Mark Jones

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